Alliteration.

Prince Charming please put some pep in your step. A pretty perfectly placed piece on my pointer would plainly put a positive answer in my pucker.

Hiatus.

So I took a little break from the blogging. Not because I chose to but because a break chose me. And I wish I came to you with a whole lot of bright and exciting news. But I dont. So if thats what you are looking for you may just need to hit that red x in the top right of your screen.

Since school got out....well I have been counting down the days until my best friend leaves for Cali. I know I am supposed to be so happy and excited for her but my heart hurts because she is going to be so far away. I am going to miss all that she does. And that makes my heart hurt. But then God reminds me that He heals all hurts and he will make Ash and me have a splendid summer.

Ash I wish you all the best and know that I will be bathing you in prayer each and everyday. I will miss you like crazy but hallelujah we get a year all to ourselves!

I did get to go to the State Special Olympics in Biloxi and that was the absolute best experience that I have had in a long time. I got to see hearts of gold stand up for each other for throwing a tennis ball 5 feet. How do we miss that? Everyday we make a to do list and beat outselves up for not crossing off everything on that list and we cant even take time out to celebrating the small things like throwing a tennis ball 5 feet. I want a heart like they have.

Then there is the heartbreaking news. My familys best friend list his battle to cancer Wednesday. And needless to say we have been having a hard time. 2 years ago his father died from colon cancer. Then 2 weeks later he went and got tested because all of his family insisted. He had colon cancer also and it was already all over his body. So that is where the journey began. After battle after battle he fought. And it was heroic. But then his body couldnt take anymore and he went into the hospital one last time. Me and my dad went to see him Tuesday and he was struggling for breath. So after about 4 hours of waiting for a final breath neither of us could take it anymore. I kissed his forehead and told him I would see him later. Then me and Dad fell apart. Never have I ever had to tell someone who is dying goodbye and never do I ever want to experience it again. And my prayers go out to those who are dealing with it today.

So that is where I am. I am alive, praise Jesus. So I can't complain.

Take care of yourselves and hug your loved ones. You dont realize how precious they are until you lose them.

Just The Two Of Us

So I am finished with my junior year of college. I am officially a senior in college and honestly that sounds a little ridiculous to day. A senior? In college?

Not me. I am not ready for this. I am not mature enough for this. I don't have enough faith for this. I am just a little scared terrified. I can't do this. But then again when I look back to this time and this time I am reminded that I was just as terrified then.

But I have this God. And He was with me the whole way. I can remember times this year when I was on the kitchen floor with my head between my knees bawling my eyes out wondering if anyone out there cared about me. And if no one else did, He did. And He cared enough to let me feel His precious, warm, loving arms around me.

There were times that I thought that He was nowhere to be found and yet He loved me enough to show me His face when I doubted His existence. So as I look back to August I know that I don't deserve to be here today, alive and thriving. What a mighty God we serve.