Have you ever...

Have you ever felt like you were just here. Not making a difference, not challenging anyone, (maybe even harming them)....

Just here?

Well that is where I am right now. I have been challenged by this for some time now....my whole time at State matter of fact. I fell like I want to run but the devil has got the back of my shirt and he is setting me down long enough to make me feel like I am getting a solid grip on the ground and as soon as I take that first step...he swoops me up and I look like a fool...just running in place in mid-air.

What do I do?

Lord, I want to live for You. I want you to live in me and clean out every rotten thing inside of me. Father, cut the shirt off of me that Satan has such a firm grip on. And help me to put on the clothes of righteousness. Lord, over power me and help me to be a beakon of light to your people. I love you. Oh, how I love you.

I'm dating a donkey!

And a really cute, but sometimes annoying donkey!

Sometimes, after we have been together for awhile, I wonder if me and Nathan will be able to stand marriage. I mean thats a whole entire life time with the same person, the only person that I will have to go to when my day is bad. 

Will we be able to stand each other long enough to even talk about the problem or will we just brush it off and hold it in?  

Will we still enjoy each others company or will we just annoy each other to the point that its unbearable?

Will we still be in love or will we just be friends?

As marriage slowly enters the picture I wonder where it will take us. I feel confident that if we keep God in the picture then we will make it through whatever struggles life throws at us and we will still be in love with each other as God intended love to be. 

But days like today I just have to wonder... are we going to make it forever and ever!

Whats the number for 9-1-1?

So today I have had the absolute worst day. Other than the fact that a sweet, sweet friend Meghan is up for a few days, its been bad.

To start things off...

I want a puppy. Nathan's dog had puppies and I want one of them soooo badly. But my complex won't let us had animals. BUT, we can move to another that can have dogs. So I asked my roomie if we could move to another complex and she said NO! I am so upset.

But I do know that God knows my plans. Thats so reassuring.

Then I got fussed at at work. I took some kids into the living room to watch a movie on the only DVD player that works in the building. Well that room is apparently off limits. Really? I was almost in tears. (It doesn't help that I am PMSing.)

So after a long day at work, I went to the store to buy food to cook for dinner. So I come home and start to cook and everything is going just dandy.

Then my fire alarm starts going bizzerko and I look down and the eye of my stove is on fire. This is the 2nd time that this has happened. Different eye, same stove. So I scream for help and grab the fire extinguisher. After what seemed like 10 minutes, I figured out how to work the durn thing. So I pulled the pin and doused the flames. And my food. And the clean dishes that were on the counter. And all of my appliances. I have a lot of cleaning to do.

I finally got the fire alarm turned off and the doors and windows opened. Then the upstairs one starts to go bizzerko. I run to go turn that one off and a light blew out. I was totally flabbergasted.

So that was my day. No dog. No fun at work. No meal (well no home made meal).

But God knows my plans. And that comforts me.